♥ 静 ↘ 静

Well, I have a announcement.

I switched to a NEW BLOG!

Link: http://simplelassie.blogspot.com! :)

I am no longer using this blog anymore,

But i am still considering whether want to keep this blog or not?

♥ 每一個人，都會有屬于自己的天空。他的，或許是晴朗；她的，或許是狂風暴雨。

♥ 而我呢？ 或許是陰晴不定。有時候，我真的覺得很開心很知足；但也有時候，我的心情很煩躁，對這種生活很乏味。我的每一天，漸漸沒有了分別。日復一日，我還是一位樣樣都缺的人。是否我不夠知足，還是渴望得多。

♥ 真的很想啊…就不要奢望那么多…簡簡單單的生活就好了。但是就是無法改變自我要求。我常常都在想，為什么我的生活就是讀書，將來按部就班地出來社會工作。真的希望我是沒有包袱的人…可以一個人恒走天下。去一個遙遠的地方，體會并記錄世界的每一個角落的生活。只是怕了我會離鄉背井。我心中還是有我愛的家人，心中無法割舍的愛。

♥ 原本有計劃將來籌了些錢，就可以按照計劃進行。但是很可笑的，世界末日離我們越來越近。你能說我不相信嗎？我相信世界末日。老實說，我會自私地希望世界末日，永遠都不要發生。無法想象，這是對人類最終的懲罰，也是最殘酷的結果。

♥ 我不想有機會面對它的來臨。希望世界還沒有末日，我先斷氣。

 Two More Subjects I have to go through, which is principal of investment (PI) and management people organization (MPO). Lol! Almost no idea about investment stuff! Just now Yeng Sing came to my house for revision and discussion about the PI..Hmmm what had I learnt before from Mz.Haznah? did I learn anything from her? The answer will be definitely---Nope! What she taught us in the lecture or tutorial…I don’t understand at all…

First thing, she likes to take something erratic example! Urghhh---What girlfriend and boyfriend which can be used by her to explain in the investment studies. Besides that, she likes to make sound effect! Sizzle here..vromm here..ping pong piang..boom boom pow! Her teaching style very weirdy! Yish…when I check back, not even one of my tutorial answer is complete! Most of my tutorials are in blank. Ai…don’t know how to study this subject!

Today, I am only randomly looked through 6 chapters. Most of the time, I need to search Google for helping me to understand further of a specific term. Really quite a lot have to read and understand. Furthermore, i have to memorize those definition, characteristics, disadvantages or advantages and so on! It is not easy to me because my head is pain! Every day, I sleep at 4am and wake up at 12pm, gosh! I becoming a night owl this few days because of examination. Of course I am not study for all the time, sometimes online and playing facebook! Addicted! Besides, I am also addict on watching Hong Kong drama series---D.I.E again. The baby is so cute! This movie is talks about investigation cases of the D.I.E which named by detective investigation extension! Not only mysterious, but also comedy!

I am know now is tension period for examination…but sometimes, human being also need some rests! It’s important for my brain to take a breath! If not, I think I will turn crazy! Study! I really hate it! But, it is a MUST for me to study! I even think that the Banking&Finance course is what I want? What I interested?! I love travel! I think I should choose tourism lar…yish! I dislike banking but I like business studies, I though banking will be an easy job for my future. But oppositely, banking is a pity job. Need to work overtime without paying. Stress! Complicated and suffer if working in the loan and recovery department. Credit card department? I don’t like to be a salesperson…I hate sales and commission..even though can earn extra income and increase work motivation? For me, no! no! no! so what position can I take? Banker in the customer line? What I learnt…customers do not need a banker! Haha!

又是好累好累的一刻 剛才考歷史

一個小時就回答好了 所以提早離開考場

我的頭很痛 身體很累很酸痛

原因 = 因為我昨晚又熬夜到4點早上

隔一天7點半醒 所以缺少睡眠以及休息

最近我都在考試 已經考過了兩科

唉…還有其他四科在手上掙扎 啊

真的越來越沒有心情溫習功課，整天在家看戲或上網。

第一科 = 是考會計 Financial Accounting

這次，我想進行讓大家更進一步的回答問題。哈哈！當然也是自問自答，不過要是大家有興趣想問關于我的東西，我很樂意在此回答喲～～

♥ 我真正的志愿是？

現在我是就讀銀行金融系的。但是那并不代表是我的興趣。當初我只是順我家人的意見，覺得讀書后出來比較容易找工作。本來有想到讀數量估計科系，但是前前后后因為很多原因所以就沒有選它。但是，這些都不是我的志愿。我最想當一名飛機師………非常帥氣的工作。但是由于眼睛近視很嚴重，再加上這個科系的學費相當“重本”，所以就放棄了心中內心深處的夢想。我很喜歡四處趴趴走，當飛機師不但可以去不同的國家，同時你也是正在帶大家向往不同的地方。可以說是很偉大的工作，畢竟你手上握住了旅客的性命。但是還是很遺憾的….我的志愿是無法達成的……… ^^

有時候在想說我要寫什么題材呢？真的摸不著頭緒～～

今天一早9點就趕著去學校上課了 聽好喔～～“趕”著去上課

沒有一次是可以輕輕松松去上課（唉）

原因昨晚很遲睡 所以今早8am才爬起來 因此8.35am才出門

好累啊 最近真的好累 好想一直睡覺下去

因為睡不好 皮膚也漸漸地不好 眼睛腫腫

啊～～怎么搞到自己那么累喔

我不是鐵人 身體也會疲累 精神也會崩潰

何時何年何月何日 我才可以擺脫這種生活

最近可以說是忙到我的頭都快燒焦了，真的對這個科目感到措手無及。 我怎么摸也摸不著； 猜也猜不透。我鎮的不懂要如何渡過這個難關，實在毫無頭緒。第一次那么地慌張，我不想畢不了業。對于現在的我，我的學業就是我的一切。真的很希望可以考到好成績!

這個星期五就得考會計科的小考，但是如果不過的話，我就得當這個科目了。唉！偏偏我最不理想的科目也是這一科，實在是『啞巴吃黃連，有苦說不出』啊！不管我再怎么都喜歡，還是得遷就，畢竟銀行以及金融管理是逃不掉會計這一塊兒。只好多用心讀書。

但是最近很嚴重沉迷于Facebook，不是玩心理測驗，就是玩游戲。在這里面真的是包羅萬象，應有盡有，太多游戲我都不敢去觸碰。『一碰就會碎』，好熟悉的歌詞，但是『碎』指的不是心或許愛情，而是我的學業。真的快碎了～～但是就是耐不住性子，每天不上下就不像我了。哈哈！

很多東西我還在學習當中，沒有一樣我是可以做到百分百的完美。我承認我打桌網球很差，但是這個學期我偏偏進這個項目。我連開球都不會開，實在是很頭痛，不管我再怎么學，就是那一般的程度。有時候我在想，是不是我沒有放心思又或者是不認真，因此一次又一次地表現沒有進度。

人與人的相處也一樣，一直都在學習當中。總覺得人的相處需要的是很大的包容心。我們必須忍耐所有的不快樂還是不想的，而去支持他人所想要的。退一步，海闊天空。不是每一件事都得我行我素，有時，我們也得聽旁人的看法以及想法，并去改變得更好的結果。硬碰硬不是最好的解決。

每當我在描寫古晉的假期生活時，一幕幕的情景回蕩在我腦海中。

我最喜歡就是送小妹上學還有接她放學了。依依不舍地送她進班里，她都會乖乖坐在老師給她安排的位子。『咦?這是你的位子噢?』我就是這樣問她。她說是啊，然后就乖乖坐在位子上。覺得她很懂事，成長了不少了！當初，她只會用福建語溝通，現在她的華語反而常常掛在嘴邊。真的讓我哭笑不得，難以接受她突然的變化。雖然這是一件好事。總覺得她不再是嬰兒了，而是一個長大的小孩了。她好愛拍照喔！我一直被她逼著一起拍照，真的無奈啊！但是還是覺得跟她一起留個紀念也好。非常喜歡她，也非常想念她。媽咪常常說她的孩子都大了，原本她可以好好享受人生，哪知卻蹦出一位小妹。這件事讓她苦惱，因為照顧一個孩子不容易！但是從來不會因為這樣而后悔，因為我們都很喜歡她。有時候，她卻成為了我們的開心果。♥

回去時當然也有跟朋友見面。難免少不了跟我的姐妹們出街。非常感謝她們送我的生日禮物，雖然是一份遲來的祝福，但是我依然可以感覺到她們的用心！無論你們送我什么禮物，我都會喜歡，因為我收到的是你們的那份心意。Thank You Very Much! 這次我的姐妹們都好忙喔！想借此說，真的沒有關系你們沒有時常出來見個面，有一次就已經足夠了。心儀還有鈺婷還在百忙當中抽空陪我喝茶，真的感動。綺賢，你就不要在自責喔！因為你要考試了，所以才無法送我去飛機場還是出去喝茶，我沒有關系的也沒有怪你的意思喔！要是真的感到內疚的話，有空你就過來KL找我好了=] 我們的友情有多深，我心肚知明，沒有太多言語我就可以感覺到我們都是彼此的最好知己。除此之外，我還有跟欣穎，沈怡，明莉和淑珊一起喝茶。咱們有多久沒有這樣過了?那已經是一段很遙遠的歲月了，想起來還真的感到愧疚！我們的聯系也太少了，所以才下定決心非得聚一聚。（哈哈）我還有跟阿Dine和工作的哥哥們出去，真的很高興和滿足了。這次回去，總算可以見到很多好久不見的好朋友。最讓我覺得高興的是看到你們還是平安和幸福健康。但是很遺憾的是，我們一張照片也沒有留紀念。唉 ♥

又是新的一個學期了  看來又得忙的像蠟燭兩頭燒

因為我總共有5科的Assignment在手上♥

其中一個還要用錄影做presentation >.<

說來奇怪  我又不是讀broadcast之類的  還得弄這類錄影東東

還記得當時在黑夜里踏上古晉的土地，真的心里一陣感動也萬分激動。有一陣子了，我沒有回家了。我跟艾欣的心情都填滿了渴望以及期待見到家人的那一刻。迎接我的是家里最可愛的老么還有長大的大妹，非常想她們。那時的我，莫名地尷尬，畢竟非常熟悉但卻又有點陌生。（只不過隔3個月沒有回家，真的會夸大詞來說！嘿！）

Hello! ^-^

我已经消失了快一个月了，真的是太懒惰上部落，原因刚刚开学所以没有多余的心情。而且最近迷上一部港剧！哈哈！就是—巾帼枭雄！非常值得看的一部古代剧，因为戏剧有惊有讶也有险，一部不拖泥带水的戏剧！每一集都很精彩！结果就一直追追追！三天看二十集！有点严重厚？嘿！还好啦～刚刚开学，所以可以松弛下。

除此之外，也想乘这次的部落祝大家『端午节快乐』！不懂是不是第一次没有在家庆祝端午节，但是，仍然很感谢我的好朋友—淑萍。她很有心喔！特地包粽子给我吃，担心我一个人在外没有粽子可以吃，心里默默感动。谢谢你！你的粽子，我全吃光了！嘿！

还有成绩也出炉了！唉！只可以说不理想～Marketing-A, Financing-B+, Micro(Resit Paper)-C+！突然就跑出一个C+，真的有点遗憾喔！但是还是会加油，至少我都pass了！应该知足了！呵呵！成绩出炉的这一天也许我的SKAX好朋友—Xanne的19生日！生日快乐！希望我们的小小心意你会喜欢也有个跟我们一起庆祝的难忘回忆～Friendship Forever～ XD

Ps: 下次分享我在古晋过假期的生活 =^^=

Announcement! Haha! I will go back to Kuching at tonight. So, within these two weeks I will away from my blog a while, sorry to all. But I think no one will care about it =p

                My heart feels like going up and down now. I am happy because of going back soon, I am a bit unhappy because need to left my bf in 2 weeks. Yish! Already be accustomed to be with him in my life. But I think I am sure will have an enjoyable holiday. I miss my friends and family, and I hope to see my youngest sister, she is so cute! Miss her lots! Don’t know how she looks like…

                Last but not least, to all tarcian, wish u all have a sweet and relaxable holiday. Go to have a rest and well prepared for the coming semester and coming result! Haha! Damn nervous about my result! Ai!

Early wish for all mamas in this world, Happy Mother’s Day! XD

無奈！一心只想個趕快把考完試，真的沒有溫習。一直在那邊瞎晃，書半滴都還沒有沾，不懂明天該怎么去面對考試，現在還有心在這里寫部落多過看書。唉！我也實在不想，就是沒有心里建設，好想假期！對于這次的考試，幾乎快投降了，打算隨便看看好了。這樣，死了也無憾！哈哈！開玩笑啦！我可不想再次敗在這 課考試，再艱難還是會硬著頭皮，度過明天。

只要再過今天，我就宣布自由了，再忍耐下好了。到時瘋狂去游玩好！昨晚，嗯，應該是半夜凌晨兩點，這里卻刮起大風，還呼呼響，真的聽了都雞皮疙瘩。最衰的是我住在23高樓，大風刮起來，真的感覺很不對勁，超大風！就在我在房間打機時，突然就聽到門被甩得很大聲，然后還有丟東西的聲音。我心里就默默埋怨：“誰那么無聊在吵架啊”！真的吵到我了！

Alright, I had done with my FOM paper. Finally, but still have to sit another paper: Microeconomic. Regret! Why I failed my ME subject in the first semester, this subject wouldn’t be that tough to me, because I am weaker in Accounting rather than Economic. Yea! That’s why I am quiet angry about this matter. What’s happen to me? ==

Rest for a day, will be sit the ME paper. But now, I m feel so tiring, hope to be rest more time. What to do? Still have to achieve it. So far, FOM paper for me is quite okay, I am truly knows the answer but don’t know how to explain it. Yish! So I tried to use by my own language, my own statement. Don’t know can get across or not. Hope that the marker can approve what I had written down. For me, the calculation part in the FF paper is quite okay compare to the theory part. The first section already killed my marks…I think I probably lost 10 marks. Kinda disappointment with my brain, is it lost function? I think my brain can’t work in memorizing part already. Haha! =p

Mostly all my friends back to their hometown after FOM paper, only left those who need to be resit, including me. I am not going back immediately after ME paper, will left for 2 days. I think, on 6^th May, I will be going back to Kuching. “My Lovely Hometown, I will come back sooner!” My family and those machie please wait for my return and must treat me enrich meal! Haha! Really miss you all a lot. Hope that I will have an enjoyable and memorable two weeks holiday! But still have to control my spending, if not, I will face bankrupt in this month. Cannot! I need to spend a lot of things for this month, better save and control myself!  ^-^

Now, I am just hope that can pass my next paper successfully. I have to get ready my revision and work hard as well. I am surely can do better that previous, if not, still have to resit! Wao, I am promise and swear to myself that:  “I am not going to fail any subjects anymore”. No matter how difficult is it, everyone can pass; I am also can pass. As long as I am abstain from the lazy bone!

Keep going on my revision, Gambateh! XD

曾经想过 如果失去了你

我的人生是否还是 幸福美满________

每当以为我对你的感觉已经成了 习惯转变成冷淡

❤_________孤独_________❤

看着那无望无际的海